No, Supernatural. No. I could make it through you killing my favourite characters repeatedly and the betrayal you set us up for constantly and the consistent amounts of heartbreaking sacrifice every season brings with its weighted decisions and secrets - all in all, just the general level of tragedy and fucking angst I’ve come to expect from this show.
But this shit with Sam and Dean? I am fucking incapacitated with goddamn feels right now because it’s fucking relatable. I know what it’s like to go through this disconnection from a loved one because the way you want to love them and the way they want to be loved doesn’t line up. You’d do anything to keep them happy and at your side, but they’d rather be a little broken and away from you because at least it was their choice and their actions and themselves they relied on.
I nearly cried over the fucking Ghostfacers. The pinnacle of blatant comedy and effortless camaraderie. Not okay. I don’t cry over TV shows or books or movies and I am barely fucking holding it together.
I could write a goddamn essay on how much it absolutely breaks me to see the glances Sam and Dean shoot each other (and even the ones they shoot the Ghostfacers because they see reflections of their own situation and heartbreak and the ones the Ghostfacers shoot each other), and you can just see firsthand the thoughts going through their heads like they’re written on their faces, the awkwardness they feel when they turn away and search for the right words, the restraint in place to keep from doing something the other person wouldn’t want because even though they’re frustrated, the other’s happiness is all they want - even though they want to be selfish and cross that violent divide, they know it’s there because they were selfish in the first place and things haven’t been resolved yet and need to be before they can put it aside or it’ll be a constant stain in their relationship.
And it’s so hard to see a solution. You can’t make them adopt a different viewpoint because how they handle the situation is an intrinsic part of the character themselves. And for once, everything is already out in the open - there’s nothing to understand because it’s already been said and understood - and they’re stuck in this fucking rut of “how do I fix this? How can I make this better?”
Because they don’t hate each other. God no. The rift was created out of love. It’s a dissonance resulting entirely from love without a speck of hatred. There’s betrayal, but they understand the betrayal and its existence. They want to erase it so badly, say it doesn’t mean anything. But it’s become their scapegoat to justify the rift they created, one they need to bring their relationship back into line.
And all it would take, all it would take, is Sam or Harry putting their betrayal to the side for a second just to tell Dean and Ed that they still love them and those two don’t have to be ashamed and keep hiding it behind a wall, don’t have to keep those words dead in their throats, don’t have to avert their eyes and drift away and pin their hands at their sides. That they may not agree with their methods, but they understand the infallible, unquestionable, and complete love that went into the methods.
Just let me cry now.
Yesterday my friend and I were walking out of Forever 21 and the wind blew my skirt up a little. I had shorts on underneath (for this very reason) but two guys in a parked car saw it happen and yelled at me to lift it more, I yelled back, “fuck you!” and they laughed. So I took my pocket knife out of my bag and said, “I will slash your fucking tires” and they did not laugh
One promotes women being more active in their own safety (oh wait, but isn’t that victim blaming? dear God no!).
The other is an exhibitionist circus of wannabe strippers.
A man is about four times more likely to be murdered than a woman, and three times more likely to be assaulted.
Holding a march to support women being active in their own safety just serves to reinforce the wrongheaded notion that women are the primary victims of street violence.
You make an excellent point. if men had a similar march, would feminists support it? hm.